You Know ME

You know me.

Yet You love me.

You know me Completely.

Yet You love me.

All I’ve done. All I will do.

All the times that I’ve screwed up and spit at you.

You LOVE me.

I am nothing.

I’m not important.

You are everything.

You are life giving.

You’re the Creator.

The Teacher.

The Judge.

My Father.

You know all my sins.

Yet You love me more than any other.

I don’t get.

It makes no sense.

How can a perfect God like You show love to me. I spent-

all this time deserting You.

Showing You the door.

Yet all this time You stay by my side.

I’ve thrown away all that You’ve blessed me with.

Yet You still bless me with more…

I keep saying I love You.

I keep telling people You’re mine.

But I never lived it out.

I am just wasting line after line-

of sentences to others.

Telling them of our relationship.

When I know in my heart-

we are Very Distant.

I don’t deserve a second chance.

I waste it every time.

A third Chance-

Fourth Chance-

Fifth Chance.

Chance One Million Four Hundred Thousand and Thirty Nine-

They all end up the same.

I’m imperfect.

Such a mess.

But Lord I really need You.

Take all of me. In you I rest-

My life.

My being.

My thoughts.

Who I am.

Please, dear God, help me become a man-

After your heart.

Someone’s who’s upright and wise.

Some who wears his faith on his sleeve.

That wears no disguise.

You know me better than anyone out there.

You see my potential.

What I could be.

You see the future.

What it holds.

Whether it be for him.

For her.

For them.

For ME..

Mold me.

I surrender.

I know I’ve done this all before-

But I’m SERIOUS this time.

Use me how you want to, Jesus.

I can’t wait to see what’s in store.

My God.

MY Redeemer.

My Savior.

My Lord.

I do Love You.

I Love you with all my heart.

And I want to know You more.