There comes a time when you put up and shut up. Where you stop the excuses and the doubting, and you just move forward. Everyone has those moments. To some it happens sooner, others later. For me? Right now is that moment.
These past couple years have been filled with many treacherous lows and numerous incredible highs, yet without fail I found myself in the same place time and time again: hating myself, stressing over the next problem and doubting God's provision. I can just imagine Him looking from above gently shaking his head as he chuckled over my lack of faith.
Honestly, right now I'm in a weird, semi-transitional season of my life. Kind of just floating by, making a living for myself while still holding onto the dream of furthering my education. As you can imagine, my life can (and does) change constantly, and with that change comes a lot of different issues. This has led to me finding new and creative ways to stress over every new challenge instead of embracing the new lessons I am surely going to be taught through these unique, testy circumstances.
No more though.
It's time for me to stop worrying and start cherishing these teachable moments. God placed them in front of me for a reason and I need to understand that. He is a wonderful, prepared orchestrator, and I have the opportunity to be used by Him for the sole purpose of bringing Him glory. I pray that I never forget that. It is the purpose of living, and the essence of why we are here.
Now I realize this is easier said than done, and I'm notorious for giving up quickly. However, when I die all that I will have with me are the possessions that I will lay at Jesus feet. Whatever survives the fire is what He will receive. If that doesn't get me excited to make Him known, then I don't know what would!
Song that kinda fits:
Exile Dial Tone
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